Saturday, October 22, 2011

what we could have been, 3:01 AM.

Friday, October 21, 2011

I know that noone reads my blog but yeah.. At least i got something to do when I get really bored. I am now using Tumblr alot but i just use pictures to do my talking. But I prefer to use my blog to do the talking.

Yes, i am still in love with my papi! I cant let him go! I got news. He is going into NS this dec. He is going to be in Civil Defences. I am going to miss him but yeah, he have to go. It is the law.

Bestie, if u are reading this. I know for you the word 'sorry' doesnt mean anything. Well, i am going to be stubborn and say it. I am sorry. I read your tumblr and i knew u were talking about me. I am dumb and stupid. I am sorry. Slap me hard next time. I should have put u in front. I am not good to words. But i just want u to know that i am sorry sis. For everything that I have done to hurt you. I cant promise but one day I will come down with towels and swimming suits and take you swimming. :) Sorry once again. But i will take u out swimming.. After my exams though. We may not spent that much time together.. You are still my older and wiser sister. And i love you so berry much!!

Two exams down, three to go. On Monday I am finally having Math. And I have been studying for days just to at least pass it. After that is Phy and Chem.. need to study for these two!! Argghhh!!! No free time now.. Only on the 27th and 29th I am going out with my frens and Papi. and hopefully next month i will start hanging out more with my bestie. Cause I feel like I have forgotten her, and it is tear me down. She have been there for me and I am not there for her at times. Fuck me sia. Stupid ass pig.. Arghhh.. So my goal of next month is have more time with her. Cuz I have been missing out on her for a long time. :(

xxxx

what we could have been, 12:56 AM.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Need to get these few things off my chest.

What is the freaking use telling my family anything? They will just say I am still young. I dont understand. I havnt been in their shoes. And they always scold me about not being open to them? Hello, how am I going to be OPEN to u guys if u never ever listen to my problems? All u guys on is always been letting my choice go down the drain. U have no idea that when Kak Yah Yah ask me what I wana do in the future, I started crying. Cuz i never get the choice to chose my own future. It is like u guys chosing for me not myself chosing. What next? R u going to chose who i am going to marry? I hope not. Plz lah, how am i going to be able to live alone with u guys breathing down my freaking neck. Plz give me space. Not Mummy.. But u Abg.. Plz.. I know u are older and wiser. But I want to learn by myself.. Not u.. Thanks..

what we could have been, 2:17 AM.