Monday, May 31, 2010

God, you should know that i am stress cuz of you. After writing so much sweet things about you.. you stress the fuck out of me. I know you want to write a long post about me. But I told you that I mite not read it until next friday and i really want to read it. Cuz I got skool to deal with and my mom to. I bet you havnt ask how much my phone and psp is right? God, thanks papi. Not only love you give me but stress to. Yes papi, just pass the stress to me since you cant get it. Thanks papi, I have the right amount of stress to make me crazy enough to cut myself..

Now you go and take your own sweet time..

what we could have been, 7:29 PM.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Darling switheart

I love you so much. Everyday and every second I will not miss a chance of thinking about you. You are the other part of me. Without you, I am lose in the darkness without a feeling of light and safety.

Papi

Dont you worry. You are the only who I love. No boy can win my heart over you. There is no other boy in this world like you. You are swit as candy. You are super duper kind. You love me. Hahaha. I know my words are not that touching. Hahaha.

I remember how I first felt when I first saw your picture on Psyduck's phone. I though you were like gay. Hahaha.. But when I saw you at dome the first time. You got my eyes cuz of your body.. hahaha.. And then your emo-ness shine though to me. (I LOVE EMO BOYS).. I could not stop thinking about from that day on. Just be thinking about send shivers down my back bone. I remember the day that you first hang out with me. I was in like shock when I saw you with Aidil, Two Face and Psyduck. I wasnt wearing makeup. I wanted to look good for you. You know like to show off.. Hahahaha.. But end up, you are in love with my face. Hahha.. So, days went by, until one random day, you send me a msg that said if i can be your Godsister. I was like sure, but in my mind I was like HELL YEAH.. hahhaha.

I remember that day that we went out to play down Abd budi;s blk with a group of people. Hahaha. I couldnt even stop staring at you. Hahaha.. I even tried to look at Aidil but you keep on shining to my eyes. Boy, were you shining. hahaha! I remember walking down the beach at Pasir Ris Park. Hope that you will look at me. And you did.. Hahahha..

Gibby

I recalled the day I first kiss your cheek. My heart was beating soo freaking fast. I was like a little girl right. I said goodbye and then close my eyes and started running towards home leaving you at the blk stoned. hahaha. Papi, i love you. And hopfully we will last a life time together.

We been though bad times and good times. I always though that I know everything about you but everyday I find myself learning about you.

Bby boi

I hope I am not like none of your exs out there. I hope that I am the best you ever had. And I wish that you and I can get married together.

Forever loving you!

Md Abdillah Shah Bin ______

Nur Fatin Auni Md Jamil Sherman

aka

Annie Sherman

xxxxx

what we could have been, 5:48 PM.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Man, I just cant be bother. Huh?

People love to tell behind my back cuz they dont dare tell it to my freaking face. Just cuz I didnt go to meet Mak in the hospital doesnt mind i dont care for her. And that fucking old hag, made up a story that "oh, I did ask annie to go but she said no.."

Look old fart, I was fucking tired from skool. And btw YOU DIDNT OPEN YOUR SMELLY MOUTH TO ASK ME KINDLY FUCKER! It was like a month ago, yet you just had to wait to tell my dear sick mom that I didnt go. And you dont like it. Gosh, how come you didnt go talk to my face but went to tell my mom. You know she is sick right?! Gosh, sucker.. Mind your own dick. Focus on making it longer.. Hag..

I know it is half my fault that i didnt go.. I am sorry.. I just to lazy to see that old fucker's face near Mak. She is very different with him around. But when he is, god, she can be a pain in the ass.. That mother fucker is just fucking jealous that my family have money and he doesnt have that much. My mom said that he care for me.. MY ASS!! He just care about fucking Mak in the bedroom and forgot to close the door when he is finish.. His small dick is ssooo ugly. Fucker.

Thanks papi for being with me to calm me down, without you i bet I would have blow up.. I love you!

what we could have been, 11:37 PM.

I had a wonderful day today! I went to skool as always. Papi dont go to his skool so he went to see me. I skip the last class cuz it was soo damn boring! I went back home to ask Mommy if I can go watch a movie. She said yes but I had to take Dwi to buy chicken rice for her and my mom. After the walk back from whitesand, Mommy let me have $20 for the movie. Papi and I walked to downtown east. After we booked the tickets to watch Prince of Persia. We went down to eat KFC. While eatting, i got very damn bored. I ask Papi to close his eyes and then I put a bit of ketchup on his cheek. hahaha.. Then, we both went to wash our hands. Papi's first try failed just my hair got in the way of his wet hands. Hahaha.. but the second time, he got my face wet. Hahaha. I love to see him happy. When he smiles, my heart feels safe and calm.

The movie was super duper awesome! I love it. On the way home, papi and i walk though the town park. Thanks God that Papi had strong eye sight. A black kitten was sitting near the lane. She was so damn cute! I wish i can bring her home! Wahhhh, I just love black cats. Her eyes was like Puss In Boots.. hahhaha.. Damn cute! But to bad, I cant bring it home and Papi lives at Toa payoh. ::(( I hope the black kitten is doing fine. Well, my day was great!

Thanks Papi for the time we spent together. I never want to be away from you. I want to be your light that guides you though darkness. I want you to be my husband. I love you Darling. Noone is betta then you. And I mean it NO ONE!

Ninee!!!

Yo sis, i am really glad that I have you as my sister! I really never had a sis before. Even if i do have one, she isnt around me that much. But you, you know me and understand me. I would never even think of losing our relationship cuz of a person who is lower than you. (I hope that i make sense) hahaha..

*Someone*

I am really trying to understand what you are doing. Why did you say all the bad stuff about my frens when I treat your frens nicely.? Huh?

Why are you doing this? Do you know by doing this you are hurting me? I told you already. You have to go though Abd and Ninee before you can get to me. Jay, i really hope you do well. I am your fren but I am feeling like you want me as your enemy. I hate having enemys. I really do. Haish. Why cant you just fight with me and let me be stress then my close frens? I am asking you nicely. Very nicely. Deal with me.. with your stress not them. Leave them alone. But you wana from a fight, fight with me. Since my life is all about stress. So plz do. Ok? *tears in my eyes*

Let them be.

what we could have been, 12:10 AM.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Hello guys.
My life isnt going so well. My bestie is fight with *someone*. I dont want them both to get hurt.:(
Yes, I am mad that *someone* did go threaten Haikal and Papi.. People who threaten other people are cowards. But I just dont like people fighting. :(
Right now, I am more focus on Papi. He is sick. Poor bby. His heart is beating to fast and it cause him pain. It is cause of the stress going on. I am trying to keep the stress away from him. Plz pray for him to get betta. :) I found out that there is alot of people who care for him.. not only me. Ninee and haikal does. And his skool frens and the dome-ers.. hahaha..
Thanks everyone for the love and care that you are giving him. He really needs it. Since his family is fucked up right now. I hope his family is going to pay the rest of the hospital fee.. I am not going to let him pay it all..
Right now Papi is siting infront of me. Reading a book about fishes. Hahaha.. he looks so cute..
Well, I gtg. I hope that I can hang out with ninee and haikal soon! Peace out preps!

what we could have been, 12:54 PM.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Today that someone met me at my skool after class was over. He wanted to talk at KFC but i told him i cant be late. So he got on the bus with me and start talking. He siad that he was glad that i did what i did to him. He said that he is going to prove that he is a change guy.. He said he is sorri and alot of stuff..

I told him that I dont mind forgiving him but I cant right now. He cant only prove to me. He have to prove to Papi and Ninee..

I told him that I have made some wrong friends because I got a soft heart. Ninee is my wall right now. If a guy want to be my friend, I think that guy should try to pass her first. Hhahahaha.. I dnt want to forgive him then get hurt again..

Oi, *someone*.. Can you plz leave abd alone? He is sick.. Dont go threatening him. Dont you dare pass that line.

Papi switheart, I love you. plz be careful. I wish i was there when you went to the hospital. Haish.. See you 2morrow syg!

tata.. bye!

what we could have been, 10:08 PM.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I just wana say thanks to my friend Ninee.. You are so wonderful to say all of those things to me. We will always love you and care for you. I dont really know that else to say but thanks for being in my life sis! Without you, I cant be a tough girl and be looking hot like you.. chey! Hahahaha..

To Papi, you are the one of me syg. I love you from the day Hafiz Cine ask me to call you bull.. hahaha.. be with me forever ok!!

To haikal, thanks for letting me hit you.. hahaha..!! Oh and thanks for being there then i was with Aidil.. hahaha.. Look after Ninee ok.. try not to hurt her alot ok.. hahaha

I gtg to slp now!!

what we could have been, 10:43 PM.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Yo preps!

Wat's up?

Well, i got news for you!

My mommy is back! Let me say it again, My Mommy is back!

She bought me a new phone. Hehehee.. I am soo happy! It is SE Aino.. hahaha..

Well, today I went out with my family. :) First we went to eat then we went prawning. It was soo fucking fun.. It was my first time. Abd Budi scared me so bad that I yelled very long. He pretend to throw a live worm at me.. Eeee.. hahaha..

Btw I am nooo long frens with that someone.. Btw sis, should i tell him or should i just let him play somemore? hahaha..

To that someone

since we are not going to contact each other anymore and stuff.. Let me tell you this, Abdillah is my freaking boifren and I can do anything that I want with him.. Who are you to stop me? Just cuz a promise doesnt mean that I am not joking. hahaha.. Btw dnt act like you dont like talking dirty with Cat. Telling her your manhood stuff.. hahaha.. Let me tell you who Cat really is. Hahahaha.. It was one of my close fren. This is how i test you. It is for me to see with my very eyes wat type of person you are. I just feel like tell everyone but I remember something, you may not be a fren to me right now but you will always be a fren in my mind.. So I want to stop this all.. Haish, ok.. i now you love ika and stuff.. I think you should stop msging her.. cuz she isnt a gal.. hahaha.. So tata now.

Nite people.. I hope i can meet my switheart tomorrow!! :(

Labels: let's forgive and forget..

what we could have been, 1:54 AM.

Monday, May 17, 2010

To Papi,

Papi, sorri about last night and this morning. It is just that I am going through a selfish mood and I just need to be by myself for awhile. I just want to relax my mind before anything major happens. It is just that I am damn stress. I am damn stress of money. Mommy isnt even here yet. it is cuz of her that I never ask money to buy stuff. She told me to wait. And now she is not here.. Haish..

I always wanted a bf who got enough money to make me happy. Not like super rich. Just more money then me. Just let me go though with what i wana say ok? I get soo jealous when i hear about other girl's bf. That they buy them very nice ex gifts.

The next thing is that it is soo boring hanging out with you somethings. Always blk 536 or whitesand library. And soo on.. You just dont understand me do you?

Papi, forgive me for saying all of this.. I am deeply sorri syg. I really love you. I love you so much that I can really die for you. Papi, just try to understand me more and use your blur brain ok? *smiling weakly*

Forgive me for being like this..*tears in my tears* I sometimes have selfish moods now and then. But I can get over it though..

I love you papi!

Giddy!

Switheart!

Bby Boi!

Blur King!

Bull!

Changi!

A horse!

hahahahahahah

muacks!

I am not mad at you anymore darling!

what we could have been, 12:03 PM.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

God, that guy thinks I am sooo dumb..

He think that I cant read the signs.. That guy is finally showing his fucking true colors. I made my choice.

Yo, ninee.. Tell haikal and papi to stop playing their game. :) it is fun and all. but I really want to get over it right now. :) Msg papi and haikal 4 me.. My pp8 is low! :( and my mommy is nowhere to be found.. haish.. poor me.. So, my heart is so stress.. hahaha.. I just make the wrong friends. But thanks Allah that he made me find you guys. Haikal, you, and Abdillah...

Haish, I hate say goodbye but I got to...

Tata preps!

what we could have been, 10:55 PM.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Yo, how are you guys doing?

Man, looks like got alot if things going on my blog. Well, I dont care about it anymore. Right now I am soo upset! When is my mom coming? One day she says that on 11th march, but then she never come. Wat is going on? I msg Abang Md Noor yet he never msg or email back. Geez, why is this happening? I want my mom now.

To Papi!

Papi, I just wish I can marry you right now! So I can release you from your aweful family! But I know, I got to wait! Well, I know today you are meeting your mama and after that you are working. I love you papi! Muacks!

To Ninee my sister!

Hahahaha.. I love ya sis! Thanks for everything! You are the best!

About school!

It really sucks! The classes, the teachers! But not my friends! Helen, Por,Tor, and Gotti! Wow, now when i am not with the boys.. I am hanging out with fiona and helen.. lol.. weird.. I thought Fiona hate me!

Well, I got to go!

Tata!

what we could have been, 1:00 PM.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Amaciaaaaaaaaaaaaam? This isnt Annie here, this is Ninee (the one always changing her blogskin for her. Haha! Lazy bump you, Annie -.-" Heh. Nahhh. More like she doesnt know how to edit blogskins and all.

All right. So, I've got something to say and it's kinda long. I'd rather type it down here than literally spamming Annie's tagboard (with my name there). So yeah, "someone" this is definitely for you.

I know this is none of my business but we're talkin' bout my sister here. Yeah we're not blood related, I know. But that don't mean that we're not as close as sisters. But dude, do you even have a dick? Why didnt you have the guts to flood Annie's tagboard with YOUR name on it? Oh, maybe it's because you dont want Annie to find out who you are cos you're just worried that she wont accept you, or maybe your parents gave you a name that you didnt like so you name yourself as someone.

You can spam all you want, say this and that but you better think of what's gonna happen if let's say Annie were to find out who you are. You sound so desperate, ya know? You're like begging and begging. Arent there more people out there to make friends with? I think you find Annie so special, that you will wait for her no matter what it takes. Ya' forgetting she already got a guy? You must be plain dumb, dude. Serious shit.

Why won't you think about this? First of all, Annie gave you a chance despite you disappointing her the first time. And then now you're doing it again. You think what? Funfair is it? Go fly kite first kay? Berani bobual besar pat cyber. Keyboard warrior lah konon. Bile jumpe face to face, ko terberak-berak. Ya get it, sugar? We'll just see about it.

Thanks for reading ;)

what we could have been, 1:02 AM.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Man, I know who that someone is..

To someone,

God, i really dont know wat to do with you. I think I need time to forgive you.. So I am going to relax from this anger. So you dont need to talk about this anymore. I want you to do something to make me to forgive you. So, yeah. I am going to forget it..

So, i am sooo in love with Papi! Hahaha.. I am just damn deeply in love!! :P

Papi oh Papi!

Md Abdillah Shah Bin________!!

I know this is sooo early to say but I wana marry that blur king! Hahahaha!

But now I have to study and get a job!

Tata

what we could have been, 9:38 PM.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

This is of someone who is a freaking guy who doesnt know how to be a mature man.

Look, I know i have been hard on you. And i havnt been telling you why. So let me tell you right now.

I am so damn tired of your childish jokes and inmmature attitude. I am not always crazy and hyper and stupid. I am most of the time emo and damn serious. I dont mind you joking around but not all of your freaking time. And plz ah, dont act big big ok? Dont think that I cant fight and hurt you just cuz i am a kind hearted person. Look, I almost break our friendship but I gave it one more chance. But now I am on the edge of breaking it now.

You can go complain to Helen if you want to. She cant do anything to help you. THIS IS MY LIFE!

So plz, if you are not going to understand me. Just Fuck off. Get out of my life.

Ok enough of the anger,

Well, today I am with papi in the library, he is busy playing on his com. Lol, I am so glad he is with me today. Good thing his grandma give him money, if not, he wont be with me cuz he lost his ezlink.. poor papi. Well, after this, we are heading to the tamp's mall for window shopping! Lol, btw my mommy is coming this coming tuesday. She said that she mite do a small belated birthday party for me.. Lol.. hahaha.. I love her so much!

So, i got nothing else to say..

Tata!

what we could have been, 4:02 PM.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Yo yo preps! What's up?

Today I went out with Papi. Went to whitesand. Nothing fun. Bought food. And hanged out at our favorite place.

Then for some reason I started thinking nonsense stuff. About people nowadays calling me fat. It is weird really. When I gain weight, people say I look good but then when I finally lose weight, they say I am fat lah, ugly lah. I was like that is fuck.. Well, I know I should care what they say. Papi told me that I am pretty. And that if I wasn't pretty in the first place, he won't be sitting with me.

Thanks Papi, your words really do cheer me up. Without you, I dont know what I would have done.

So, let me say this to the people who said that I am fat..

IT IS MY FUCKING LIFE! I AM PROUD TO HAVE THIS FAT ON ME! I AM BIG AND BEAUTIFUL! I KNOW YOU ARE JUST FREAKING JEALOUS RIGHT! HAHAHA! SUCKERS! EAT MY DUST!

-.-

hahaha.. well, I am going to sleep now.. Tata

what we could have been, 11:43 PM.