Monday, June 27, 2011
I am watching jerry springer show on youtube. Man, all the people in the show is just so freaking wrong. Fathers being pimps, daughters stealing their bodies, mother trying to save the family, or the whole other way around. Sisters stealing their own sister's husband. The whole world is so messed up. U should check it out on youtube but you got nothing better to do.. :p
what we could have been, 2:52 AM.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
When my eyes laid on your eyes, I broke down crying. When my fingers feel your soft skin, I wanted to be with you forever. When your lips touched my lips, I knew where I belong. But when my anger boils up cuz of u, the whole world will turn upside down. But you just know how to bring me down from my anger cloud. And all it took was a single touch.
I just got to know that I am not only beautiful with only my mother and brother's love. But I am also more beautiful with your love. Now kiss me and dont let go.
what we could have been, 6:15 PM.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Stress really does drive me crazy. Stress is like making me hate the people around me. This is what happens when I get locked up in the house for two days without going out. If today i am staying in the house one more time. I swear my mind will blow off.. I need fresh air. I need other sorts of food. Not the same type of fish cooked in different sauces. I can really die in this house. So please, someone bring me out. Let's pat dogs. Feed horses. Tease cats and hug them until they meow. Let's go to the zoo! I wish. I miss touching the monkeys. I need to release stress. By doing that, I need to be around animals. If only my boyfriend knew that.
(A relationship cant work if the lovers are not talking to each other.) U know what I mean. :P
what we could have been, 12:24 AM.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Why? Oh why?! Do you have a new boyfren that looks like he is 20 or 30 plus? Come on, you are like half his age. You are damn young. Why can't you live without a guy or being in a relationship? I am here TRYING to teach you about life yet u ignore me. Ok, i know i am nothing to u even though u call me your kakak. I dont wana get stress over you anymore. I got alot of stress going on in my life. Hello, i already get gray hairs. I dont wana protect you cuz it looks like you got a boi to protect you. My bestie, Ninee, which confirm u know. Her and i have been though alot of problems with guys that confirm you are to young to understand.
U seriously dont know what is going on through guy's minds. They are not loving you. They are lusting you. Guys who can't find a proper girlfren they will end up targeting innocence young girls like you. Open your eyes. Chose a boy near your age. Wait, DONT chose at all. You got your wonderful girlfrens. What else do u need? Being in a relationship is all about commitment not for fun or laughter. Do you know that Abg Abdillah told me to heck care about you? You dont know right. Cause I was on your side. Protecting you, hoping that you will change or at least learn. But I guess Abg Abdillah is right, you wont even listen to me. When I told my frens about you looking for a boifren. They asked why does a young girl needs a boi soo bad? I just said it is your life. They all didnt want to go. I was protecting u so much from getting hurt. And you repay me by not listening to me. When I was your age dear, I wasnt thinking about guys. I was only thinking about marrying Harry Potter.
Your age is the stage of learning. But I just dont understand why must you have a boi? Why cant you wait for one or two years? Then you can start hunting for guys. I started around 16. If i could go back to that age, all i cared about was ANIMALS. nothing more. Now my feelings is out, it is up to you if u still wana be under my 'little sister' anymore. If u dont want just remember I am here to lend u a listening ear if u dont have anyone to talk to. Hate me or love me it is all up to you. You are a big girl now. So anything. Contact me through Facebook or my phone.
Take Care now!
what we could have been, 10:57 PM.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Guess wat, finally I went jogging again. Need to lose weight man. People are complaining about my body then myself complaining. It is like my body are theirs. -.- lame sia. So, i need to get jogging now. I really need these people off of my back. I need peace. So the only way for doing that is jogging. Today I went jogging with Faris. Friday then i am going jogging with him again. :) He is my jogging partner. :)
I am getting piss. My lappy is getting problems. I got things to say but I am lazy to type. Just remember to enjoy life. Ok?
what we could have been, 11:40 PM.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
The day that i was heading to USS with fitrah and the rest was a disappointed day. End up we cant get the free tickets. I dont really wana say anything about it. All i know is that I want to go to USS one day and spent a whole day in there. That is all I want. My bestie is planning to go on Haikal which is next month. That is the day i am looking forward to. I dont really know wat to say. I am off now. Bye and take care people!
what we could have been, 4:14 AM.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
what we could have been, 3:07 AM.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
I hate talking about sad stuff on my blog but i have to show people that i am not always a happy girl. I make mistakes. And i try to learn from them. Even through people advice are not wat u agree to, u know that what they are saying is true. Without my bestie and my brother advice, i would still be fighting with Babykins. At times, i just want to ignore theirs advice, but i knew deep down that they are right. Bestie told me to control my temper. Abg told me to put myself into his shoes. I know i am in the wrong. I am glad they didnt scold me and called me bad names like "Annie, why r u so fucking stupid?" or etc. But they didnt. They loved me and advice me. Thank you so much. I will try my best to live up to your guy's advice.
I met up with Babykins today. He act liked nothing much last night. He hugged me and kissed me. I was soo confused. I thought he was like going to scold me or something but he didnt. Well, Baby, i deserved to get scolding by you. I have hurted u alot. And I am like doing nothing to say sorry. Baby, i love you so much.. And i know u know that too.. muacks!
While talking to my brother, i told he that i saw scared about wat people might say if i change my status back to a relationship.. He said.. DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY. IT IS YOUR LIFE. i love you brother and i know u are there too help me if i am down.
what we could have been, 2:27 AM.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Should i go USS with Sya and Nas or not? I mean, Poor Baby. He isnt following and I really dont like it when he is missing the fun. But he said that he dont mind if i go. He knows how bad I wanted to go. Bby, you are so sweet. I love you. This will be a short post. Going to USS 2morrow with my cousins. I will confirm post a longer one 2morrow which is today.. hahaha!! Bye!
I bet we will be the loudest girls there!! fun fun fun!
what we could have been, 1:19 AM.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Everyone, let's go to USS! Yeah baby yeah! I love my mojo! -.-
Ok people, i will stop acting werid. I just cant not sit still in my chair. I cant wait to run out of my house and through the gate of USS!! If Babykins can get the free tickets from his uncle 2morrow night. And if the tickets isnt expired. We will be going to USS with Sya and Nas. Poor Aiman.. Sya doesnt have enough money to buy one ticket for him. It is their anniversery. First somemore. I feel like if Aiman really wants to go. And if the free tickets can use. Maybe, just Maybe.. I will give them to Sya and Aiman. I am going to USS again wat. Later in the week. On Friday. I will see how. Need to see the free tickets in my hands and I need to read the rules. haahha.. Lame. But true.
And if I give to them, I will just go to the beach or something with bull. Since he never went to the beach with me before. Poor baby. muacks. I love him so much. He have been working his ass off for me. :( Now I feel sad. Haish. Baby, u dont have to work soo hard just to buy me stuff that I want. All I want is to see you healthy and happy. I dont like to see u while u are sleep standing. First, it is a sight for sore eyes. Second, I wish I had a bed appear next to me right at that moment to tug u in and watch u sleep.
Ok, my mind train is going into a different tracks. I like to ask people this very question. What is the different of having sex and making love? For me is 'having sex is like having intercourse without any feelings. You are just here to have fun. Like a one night stand. Blah blah. And making love is having intercourse with love. U are sharing a moment with the one u love. U are showing how much u love him/her. I can go on and on but my mind train is changing course again.
I want to paint my nail neon yellow! I dont care! I am going down to Tamp after school to buy it. I am getting bored for my nails now. Need to look nice for Friday! Lol! Look good for one person only.. well for two people. First is Babykins like duh and second is myself! Cuz I love to look into the windows while going out anywhere. While i dont think i am the only one who is doing that. Lol. I hear from one of my frens talk about one of my guy fren named Ryan. She said he keep on checking his-shelf out. Like look at his arms and back.. Look. worst then me.. I just check my hair and makeup.. Lol. Well, I hope that Babykin's uncle has the free tickets. Until next time preps! <3 dont forget that i love you guys!
what we could have been, 11:23 PM.
The Smith Family!
Every single person in the family are so famous! I wish I am in that family. Will Smith is still my crush. I know he is old and stuff but baby, have u even seen his body? He is smoking! I bet his son with follow the hot daddy. Lol! I know I am weird but i love being who i am!
Vintage photo..
When to follow mak to Tamp so she can do her things. Met Babykins and when to Ayid house to eat. Got full. 2morrow, I will be going to this car thingy thing. Hope it isnt boring!
what we could have been, 12:03 AM.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Happy Monthsery Babykins! 2 years and 5 months! Hope that we will last until our last breath!
Enjoy babykins! These pictures are for u!
You are the light that warms my body and soul.. without you, my life is dull and dark with no hope to life..
You are the water that clean my soul. Your love is like the ocean, never ending, never stop flowing. You save me when i am drowning without no air from the stress of the evil world and bring me to air that is free from hate.
You are always there to entertain me. Never leave me bored at the side of the road. The sound of your laughter fulls me with hope and love. Your smile is the one that stops me from leaving. Dont stop laughing babykins! If u do, this world is nothing towards me.
No matter how far u may be, u are always close to my heart and soul. A second without u, is like a day without light. I can never be away from u babykins.
We have alot of things in common and alot of things uncommon. The most common thing we have is that our family dont really understand us. And we feel like outsiders. We are both trying to get close to them but nomatter wat the only place we feel needed and understood is with each other.
Yes, u can get me piss off. But I will still forgive u and say sorry. Because I love you so deeply. I cant bare to lose a person like you. Your touch can cool me down. Your kiss can bring tears of regret(for scolding you) into my eyes. Your hug can tell me that i am forgiven. You are the one who really cares for me. You are my angel.
You make me feel like I am the happiest girl in the world! Keep on pampering me with your sweet love. Keep on showering me with your lovely laughter.
I hope we will end up marrying each other. I wana be your wife. I want to have your children. I am wanting for the happiness day for my life to come. And that will be our wedding day!
Let grow old together. White hair, fake teeth dropping into our cups, nagging mouths, hitting each other with our own walking cane, grandkids running ard us, fighting over who should get to the toilet first, falling to sleep while wanting to say something important. Let's love each other until our last day on this world. I love you so much Abdillah Shah bin Hasbullah. I really do! *tears in my eyes* Happy Monthsery!
what we could have been, 1:58 AM.
Out of nowhere, Jay all of a sudden called my phone. I looked at the caller ID and threw my phone across my bed. He got balls to try to call me back after what happen. I waited until he hang up to msg that idiot.
Me: ????
Jay:Ho w are u doing?
Me:I am doing fine thanks.. Why r u msging me?
Jay:Actually I really miss u that y.
Me:Miss me?? After calling me a cheap girl.. Yeah right.. Plz leave me alone..And dont msg me.. I am a girl who got feelings..And u hurted them.. Now my heart is ice cold towards u..
Jay:I know. That was I was damn angry and i am sry.
Me:The word sorry coming out from your mouth means nothing to me.. Just back off..
Jay:Than wat u want me to do?
Me: Go cut your penis off and let the pigs eat it..(I wish I had say that) I said Back off..
So he stopped. Good. I was about to tell Babykins's frens. Seriously Jay. You got no life. You are so stupid and dumb. I can go on and on. But i dont wana think about u. You were my fren. It took me like three or four days just to forget about u. Once someone is my fren, it is hard to forget about them. Like Lilee. It took me like a couple of months just to forgot about her. She is my fren but i know she isnt go to ask me to be her fren. So might as well, forget about her. So, you should forget about me. Ok? Now go piss another girl off.. Leave me in peace. Asshole.
There is one more thing i am so stress about. On Monday, Sya and Nas are going to USS. And I wana follow soo bad. But Babykins's pay is late! He is going to ask if he can get some money first. Insyaallah(hope i spell it right), he can get. Aiman can get the ticket ard 50 bucks instead of 72. So hopefully Babykins can get the money!
what we could have been, 1:09 AM.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Since you guys know that i have cut my hair. I am happy for my bangs but not the rest of my hair. Well, go cut soon. I really dont know what to talk about. First the only people that i know that reads my blog is Ninee and my Babykins. They are the ones who know so much about me. They are the ones who understands me. I owe these two so much. Love ya!
What is wrong with people today? It is like everyone got USS fever! Well, I dont mind it. But if it is for free, i dont really mind. But Hello!! Have u guys seen the price? Syahidah is like forcing me to go! Really.. i am not joking! She is FORCING me to go. I told her if Babykins pay is enough than MAYBE i will go. I have to go to USS on the 17th too. I need to save money to buy stuff for Babykins and I. So sorry lah Sya if i cant go. Hafeez joker wana go on the 22th this month. Yes, I am rich. -.- I cant promise Sya and I cant even promise Hafeez. But I can promise my bestie, Ninee. We are all planning to save money. And we are going NEXT Month!! Not this month. LOL! You guys please dont get me wrong. I would love to go with Sya and Hafeez joker. But it is the money problem. I do hope u guys will understand!
Well, Babykins will get his pay on Friday!! *jumping up and down**have to pee but lazy cuz i got red light* I can buy my new shirt and maybe get either shorts or sandles. I havnt made up my mind. Baby wants to get a new shirt too. :) I cant wait to do some shopping with Baby!
I just finish reading this girl's blog out. I feel so sorry for her. Her p
ast was bad. But not as bad as mine. This is her link(www.ohsofickle.blogspot.com) Check her out if u wana know about her past and btw she has her own line of clothes. Her own brand. I feel in love with one of her shorts! But guess what? My luck sucks. OUT OF STOCK!! The kind of shorts that she made is also the same shorts that are at Topshop!! But they are 79 bucks! Come on now. I am not rich! I dont have money raining down on me. But God, I am IN LOVE WITH THOSE KINDS OF SHORTS! Glee, u made me this crazy! Can ANYONE Tell Me Where to Find Cheaper shorts like theses one?!!!
Nice right? I feel like pulling out my hair!! I want it soooo bad! I guess I have to wait very long until I can get this baby! Haish! :(
I was so bored today when I got home from school. I took so pictures. Check out on my Facebook page hunnies! Peaceout!
what we could have been, 12:14 AM.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
I finally got my hair cut. Btw I miss Ninee and Haikal!! See you soon!!
what we could have been, 10:57 PM.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
My BTT is 2morrow!! Plz wish me luck guys! I am been waiting for this day. I have been studying hard for this day. I hope that I can pass to make my mummy proud! I love you Mummy! Going to call her soon. To tell her to wish me luck. She is my good luck charm after all!
what we could have been, 10:19 PM.
Ryan said to that the BBQ pit starts at 6pm. Babykins, Arfiq and I reach there ard 6.40. And NOONE was here. I called him and like scold him(he think highly about himself and not others). So while scolding him, he goes and put the blame on someone else. -.- Seriously what type of NS guy are you? You said that my BBQ pit sucks cuz I didnt buy the stuff u ask me to get. Well, soo SORRY Mr. Rich. I am not like you.. Needing ex food. U said that confirm your Pit is the best. Fuck u lah. At least I had rice and stuff. At least I started on time. ASS. I heard from the rest that u called me a BARBIE doll?? WTF?? When have I ever act li
ke a Barbie? Lame sia. Got balls yet dont have the balls to say anything. I only came to the pit cuz of the rest. Not u.
They only got chicken, hotdogs, crab meat, otak2, garlic bread and mash mellows. I got bored of the food right away. I wished I was eatting Mac. Hahahaha! I had soo much fun at the pit. Amri was there. I missed my big teddy bear brother!! He have been sooo busy!! When he came, he went to me and hug me. Awwww.. he said that he missed me too. I only saw him last Halloween. :( The boys all were goofing off. The other people who said that they were going didnt come. They just wait, I will target them at school! I was the only girl again
. Use to it. Khai's girl didnt come. Busy with something. I have this feeling that she doesnt want to get close with Khai's frens.. Nvm lah. Her problem not mine. Man, I miss them alll soo much!!!!
Amri: big brother/teddybear
Arfiq:listener/gleek
Khai:goof ball/cutie
Basheed:talker/cooker
Irfan:quiet one/the victim(the whole group likes to bully him)*he isnt in the picture*
Ryan:annoying/think only for himself
Even though how long we all never meet, They all are still family. Love you guys!
what we could have been, 12:45 AM.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Have you ever saw a really hummingbird like infront of you? I have. And they are super duper fast. They really do 'hum'. The sound comes from their wings. Damn cool. They are small yet very beautiful! I have no idea why I am talking about birds. I guess I am soo worried about my Babykins.
He just started a new job at a hotel ard Bugis there. He starts at 12am and finish at 7am. OMG, i am soo worried now. I am thinking like at break time will they feed my Babykins. Well, they be good to him. Oh, for crying out loud, he didnt eat the whole day, and he played soccer and right away went to work. He is one stubborn bull. If I was there, I would have grab his horns and feed his grass.. Lol! Please msg me or twit me when u reach home babe! I cant wait to hug you 2morrow! And to feed you! Hahaha!
I got soo many plans this June. First 2morrow I am going to my classmate bbq pit. Then on Monday is my BTT. Tuesday, i might be going to the zoo with Dwi and Fika. If not, i have no idea who to ask. :( Thursday, Movie day with Aidil, Ninee, Haikal, and my Babykins! Finally I get to see my besties! Hopefully my boi has enough money to go to USS with Sya and Aiman on the 13th. If not, never mind. Some day after the 13th. It is the Dome Couple Outing. And the day I am madly waiting for 17th! USS! Free! btw how come i feel like I have told you guys already???????? Hahaha! Nvm! Just updating you!
My bestie wants me to gossip.. mmm.. about wat ah.. Oh, I know but I dont think it is save to type here. And case the person falls on my blog page. Hahaha! Ok guys, I am off. Plz excuse my blog problems, I am not a very good person with all this blog thing. I cant bug my bestie ALL THE TIME right?? hahaha! Peace out people!
what we could have been, 1:02 AM.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Seriously, I am so bored at home. Feel like taking pictures but I dont feel like it. Cuz if only me is boring. I wish my Bestie is here. Ninee Hantu. It has been a long time since we took any photoshoot. :( She was been busy working.
Well, Babykins got pay on Sunday. I really cant wait to get out this house. It is soo boring. 2morrow is one of my school mates bbq pit. At night. Free food. lol! Then on Monday, I am taking my BTT with Babykins, Syahidah, and Aiman. School afterwards. On Tuesday is ZOO Day. I am bring Dwi and Fika to the zoo with Babykins. I got free tickets! Syahidah ask me to follow on the 13th to USS but I am scared that Babykins and I wont have enough money for the tickets. I will see how ok Sya. I cant promise you. Babykins and I are also planning to Dome Couples Outing. Sometime after the 13th. But we are all still trying to find the right place to take photoshoots and hang out. Finally on the 17th I am going to USS with Babykins, Fitrah and Liyanna and Friends. Free tickets!! Awesome! 2 face is coming, but i dont know about Arfiq.. I hope he can come!
Alot of plans of like popping out. Very Stressful.
BTW I am still waiting for a day to meet Ninee Hantu and Haikal!! Dont think that I forgot about you guys who I love so much! :( When r u guys free?!!!!! Anything msg me ok!!!
what we could have been, 6:26 PM.
