Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Worst day of my life.
I got pissed like so many times at my boi until I demand for a break. After crying and complaining to other people saying that I am single. I read on my fren's facebook profile something like 'I still go back to him heartbreak after heartbreak and i just dont know why'. These words slapped me a the face. I am being a selfish bitch. I know that I am trying to make Babykins a better man for me, but i am not being patience. I am rushing it. I dont really blow my top off like this but I think cuz of my mum take my money from the bank and leaving me with nothing is making me on edge. I cant stay at home. I just had to see him. To tell him sorry. To tell him i still do love him. To beg him for forgiveness. I used the only 10 i had to go down to Toa Payoh to met him.
Right when i saw him, my heart didnt feel heavy. My love for him is soo strong. I couldnt leave him. I felt like slapping myself until I bleed. I am a selfish bitch who doesnt deserve him at all. I only cared about my feelings and not his. Babykins if u are reading this. U dont deserve a bitch like me. U wont be happy with me in your arms. U only keep quiet when I curse you. You shouldn't be quiet babe. U know that I am in the wrong. Why do you keep quiet and let me hurt you? Do you enjoy getting hurt? I know you dont babykins. U HATE it when we fight. I know you love me babe but please scold me or curse me back when I am in the wrong. You cant let me bring u down. I am wayy diff when I get mad. We both are. I love you so much babe and i really do.
Forgive me dear love, cuz i am hurt you. I had torn that wonderful heart of yours so many times yet you are still loving me. You still hug me and protect me from the darkness. I really dont know how to repay you back.
I got pissed like so many times at my boi until I demand for a break. After crying and complaining to other people saying that I am single. I read on my fren's facebook profile something like 'I still go back to him heartbreak after heartbreak and i just dont know why'. These words slapped me a the face. I am being a selfish bitch. I know that I am trying to make Babykins a better man for me, but i am not being patience. I am rushing it. I dont really blow my top off like this but I think cuz of my mum take my money from the bank and leaving me with nothing is making me on edge. I cant stay at home. I just had to see him. To tell him sorry. To tell him i still do love him. To beg him for forgiveness. I used the only 10 i had to go down to Toa Payoh to met him.
Right when i saw him, my heart didnt feel heavy. My love for him is soo strong. I couldnt leave him. I felt like slapping myself until I bleed. I am a selfish bitch who doesnt deserve him at all. I only cared about my feelings and not his. Babykins if u are reading this. U dont deserve a bitch like me. U wont be happy with me in your arms. U only keep quiet when I curse you. You shouldn't be quiet babe. U know that I am in the wrong. Why do you keep quiet and let me hurt you? Do you enjoy getting hurt? I know you dont babykins. U HATE it when we fight. I know you love me babe but please scold me or curse me back when I am in the wrong. You cant let me bring u down. I am wayy diff when I get mad. We both are. I love you so much babe and i really do.
Forgive me dear love, cuz i am hurt you. I had torn that wonderful heart of yours so many times yet you are still loving me. You still hug me and protect me from the darkness. I really dont know how to repay you back.
what we could have been, 12:27 AM.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
what we could have been, 1:01 AM.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Hi folks!
On tuesday, I brought Dwi and Fika out at the airport with my Babykins. First we went to T3 to see the airplanes. Most of the airplanes were landing so the kids got bored and started climbing on this things that are on display. There was a sign saying that there should not be any climbing but i saw alot of kids climbing so I told the kids to just join in the fun. They had a blast climbing on the display. So after that we went to eat at Mcd. Got each of them a Happy Meal. After eatting, I took them to Vivo since Dwi wanted to play in water.
At Vivo, while i was changing them into another clothes. A man came up to us and ask us to buy the perfume he was selling. He thought that Babbykins married young. Lol! Near the water, the kids looked worried but Babykins push them on into the water. They loved it! They loved throwing water at Babykins even through at times Dwi's hands doesnt have water.
I could see that the kids got bored for the water after like three hours. I think. So I change them back into their dress. And took them down to the kids playground. I noticed that Fika was just standing still and wasn't playing with Dwi. So Babykins asked what's wrong Fika. She said she was shitiing!! Great!! I right away took Dwi and Fika to the toilet. Thank God Fika was wearing a diaper. I took off the diaper, omg.. Looked like a bomb of shit. I gagged. But I did it! I cleaned Fika up nice! Yes! I can be a mother now! lol!
I took them back to the playground. They ran around and wat not. Until I finally said time to go home. We all had a fun day out! Now I know how tired a mother can be. Lol! Next time I will take them out to the zoo maybe! I cant wait!
On tuesday, I brought Dwi and Fika out at the airport with my Babykins. First we went to T3 to see the airplanes. Most of the airplanes were landing so the kids got bored and started climbing on this things that are on display. There was a sign saying that there should not be any climbing but i saw alot of kids climbing so I told the kids to just join in the fun. They had a blast climbing on the display. So after that we went to eat at Mcd. Got each of them a Happy Meal. After eatting, I took them to Vivo since Dwi wanted to play in water.
At Vivo, while i was changing them into another clothes. A man came up to us and ask us to buy the perfume he was selling. He thought that Babbykins married young. Lol! Near the water, the kids looked worried but Babykins push them on into the water. They loved it! They loved throwing water at Babykins even through at times Dwi's hands doesnt have water.
I could see that the kids got bored for the water after like three hours. I think. So I change them back into their dress. And took them down to the kids playground. I noticed that Fika was just standing still and wasn't playing with Dwi. So Babykins asked what's wrong Fika. She said she was shitiing!! Great!! I right away took Dwi and Fika to the toilet. Thank God Fika was wearing a diaper. I took off the diaper, omg.. Looked like a bomb of shit. I gagged. But I did it! I cleaned Fika up nice! Yes! I can be a mother now! lol!
I took them back to the playground. They ran around and wat not. Until I finally said time to go home. We all had a fun day out! Now I know how tired a mother can be. Lol! Next time I will take them out to the zoo maybe! I cant wait!
what we could have been, 1:23 AM.
