Monday, August 16, 2010
Hi preps..
My eyes are so heavy now just of crying. There is the story.
I came back home all tired and all I could think of is sleep. I bathe then I lied down out in the living room where it is cooling since my mom was sleeping in the room. I almost fell asleep when Mak shout at me asking to pick up the clothes outside that were hanging. It was raining abit. And without a word i went to do the chore. I went to my room to sleep. Yet again I was ALMOST falling asleep when Mak shout my name again. Mom ask me to help with the dishes. Even through how freaking tired i was, i got up.. Then Mom throught i did a rude face to her but I didnt. She start yelling at me saying that I am rude and lazy.. I got soo mad yet I still keep my face shut. (Abd Md. Noor told me the number one rule in our family is EVER TALK BACK TO MOMMY WHEN SHE GET MAD) so i had a hold in my anger. Since i didnt do anything wrong. My tears started pouring. I almost cut myself.. Good thing got alot of people in the house. If not I bet i would be dead by now. After aruging with my mom in tears, she finally realize she did a mistake. And said sorry and hug me and cried abit. I hug her and cried my tears out. She said that I am a good daughter that I do stuff without saying stuff like 'lazy ah' or 'later ah'.. I right away do the chores. But she said if i am tired or anything, tell her dont keep quiet.
But I have this thing that is so called like this..
"A rug that people walk all over on"
I am the type of person who doesnt say anything even through when i disagree or upset or watsoever. I cant change that fact. It is too hard. Aidil told me that I have a damn soft heart and I care more about the other person that myself. I always give in. But wat can I do? I am who I am right? hahaha..
2morrow is my sister Ninee's birthday. Hahaha.. I cant wait to meet her. Today i spent half of my day to just look for a gift for her.. And finally I found wat i want to get for her.. hahhaha.. I hope that she will like it.. It will be from Papi and I.. Hahahaha... Love ya Sister!!
While yet again, I cried into Papi's arms.. Stupid song... 'When I look at you' by Miley.. Made me cried.. wah, today is 'crying day' or wat? hahaha.. Ok.. I got nothing else to updated.. I gtg.. Tata..
what we could have been, 10:28 PM.
